I’m so so glad this pregnancy and delivery is over. It’s such a huge relief. I missed my toddler so much though this is just my second night in the hospital and he came to spend some time with us during the day. It’s a pity I can’t carry him yet but I’m going to hug and snuggle him the same.

I think I may have better milk supply this time round. We had really really good coaching from a lactation consultant who was super hands on and showed me how to go about breastfeeding and stuff. My milk supply isn’t in yet so baby’s on formula. So far it’s just colostrum. I will see what progress I’m able to make and will continue with mixed feeding as much as I can.

I’m not so comfortable with latching. Like I need to know if the baby did drink anything and how much. So I’m going to continue with expressing. I have a good pump that I haven’t fully utilised anyway.

I can’t wait to go back home in a few hours time! We need to ensure the toddler doesn’t throw things at his baby sister too. Haha. It’s going to be a hell lot of work. We’re going to stay at my parents’ place for a month or so, or until I employ a domestic helper, so there’ll be some extra help.

We’ll have to choose a name too for the baby! I’m passing that assignment to my husband. The baby had her newborn photoshoot at the hospital too. We had a brief look at her shots and they’re really adorable!

I was really annoyed that one of my colleagues shared my baby’s picture with my students on WhatsApp. I told her to remove it and she did but I think it was too late. I mean. Can’t people have more sense? And she’s as old or even older than my mom. Pffft. I mean my students aren’t malicious but she didn’t get my permission to do that.

I think hubby will have to take some of his annual leave so we can better manage things at home. And I’m dying to go on vacation at the end of the year! Can’t wait for that!!

Baby girl is here!

Yes! She was safely delivered via c section on 22 June at 2.7kg. She doesn’t have as loud a cry as her older brother. The older one seems to be taking things in well for now.. but we’ll have to ensure he gets as much, if not more, attention compared to his sister. 😊

The surgery went well. They had difficulty with putting in the IV. I’m expected to walk a little tomorrow and will be discharged the next day on Sunday.

I was throwing up till about 7 hours after surgery and managed to eat and retain food successfully thereafter. I’m off the IV drips too and on oral meds still that’s added relief. The urine bag comes off tomorrow.

That’s all for now folks! 😊😊😊

One more day to baby!

Yes and we’re still not entirely prepared for her arrival. There are still some chores to do and suddenly it seems like everything is rushed.

I had my final gynae appointment yesterday. Baby is head down but not engaged. I have been having sharp pains all over my tummy and the baby’s movements do hurt quite a bit especially when she kicks into my ribcage. My doctor has ordered 1 pint of blood to be on standby in case I need the transfusion. And we have settled the pre admission procedures and paperwork in advance of tomorrow.

My c section is scheduled at 730am. I’ve got to be at the hospital by latest 530am. Which means we’ve to leave the house at 445am?? Thankfully the hospital is nearby so the journey should be quick at these unearthly hours.

I can’t imagine having another baby besides my beloved toddler. It’s going to be a lot of figuring out and a mix of emotions I guess. I wonder how my little one will react to his sister too.

I’m hoping everything goes smoothly and I won’t need the blood transfusion. I can’t wait to get my body and health back – pregnancy has not been too kind to me.

Okay that’s all for now! 😁

Can’t shake this off

I can’t stop feeling annoyed and bitter that my sil named her accidentally conceived son with a name that’s way too similar sounding to my son’s name. I just wished I had been more straightforward and ignored my husband’s concerns in confronting her when they were choosing names. So now whenever we go over to my mil place for lunch and my sil and family are around too, there’s a confusing with names. It’s really really frustrating. It is some consolation that we don’t go over too often – just once a week or once in 2 weeks. But I’m hoping that they can sense my annoyance and unhappiness. My mil keeps telling my sil in the midst of everyone that she should have chosen a different name. I’ve corrected her a few times when she used the other boy’s name on my son. Very very annoying. So she’s more careful now.

I don’t know when this unhappiness is going to reveal itself in a nasty or unpleasant manner. I think it’s just a matter of time before I snap when something happens. And I know that I will have less restraint. I think I’ve tolerated enough.

My husband and I have decided to use a short form of my sil’s son’s name. I refuse to use the full form. My son doesn’t deserve this confusion.

This could have been so much easier had we cleared the air right at the start without holding back. And I’ve been chiding my husband fairly often about this.

So this crap shouldn’t repeat itself for the second baby now. And I’ve certainly more sense than to name my child with a name that’s too similar sounding to another child in the family. I was already damn annoyed with her when she announced that she got pregnant accidentally with her 3rd – and there’s a 7 year gap between the second and the new one. Like wth man. And we had just managed to conceive then. What horrid timing. Pfffft.

Okay. So now. I have to deal with this crap as diplomatically as possible. And I won’t be sorry if I can’t be diplomatic about it – if such a circumstance comes about, that is.

I’ll be watching my final movie at the theatre later in the evening before I deliver this baby girl in a few days time. I’m hoping that puts me in a more positive mood. We still have a few more things to do before the baby arrives and I need to remind my husband to complete those tasks.

Not looking forward to the surgery and recovery. But looking forward to the baby being out. 😁 meanwhile, I’ve been able to spend quality time with my darling toddler, so I’m happy with that. I don’t know how I’m going to feel about my second one when all my attention etc has been focused solely on my first for these 18 months. It’ll be quite interesting to find out!

One more appointment

Yep.. apparently my doctor isn’t allowed to let me be for more than a week without seeing me. I don’t quite know what that rule is about but he said that’s his duty of care. Whether I want to honour it or not is up to me. Well, I don’t have to pay anything additional and he said I won’t have to test my iron levels again, so I’ll turn up diligently for that final scan and check next Wed. My iron levels dipped a little as I hadn’t been too consistent with my supplement. So I’ve got to be a little more disciplined in this final week before the section next Friday.

So baby is head down and her face is facing my back. That is new cos my first was breech and lying sideways. But it doesn’t matter either way as she’ll be out via a c section. I’m hoping to have the same calm and controlled experience this time round. Absolutely no drama.

My son had his final vaccination as well at 18 months. And we have booked the same paediatrician for this baby too during her birth. So it’ll be another familiar face. I’ve booked the same anaesthetist as well.

I said in my last post that I won’t be buying anymore dresses for the baby and today I spent another $100 on some 7 dress rompers during a sale. Sigh. But that’s it. And there was a SALE. Who could resist that, right? 🙄

We’re hoping to go on a vacation in late November or early December. Really need that one. It has been a really challenging year.

Yep that’s it for now! 1 week to go before the baby girl arrives!