Monthly Archives: May 2018

34 weeks

I’ve been able to spend a lot of time with my darling 1.5 yr old toddler at home as I’ve been signed off work till delivery. I’m happy with that. I had been guilty of not being able to spend enough time with the little one because of work and this pregnancy. But for the rest of this year I should be able to spend quality time with the 2 of them.

The little one has been chattering non stop these few months and learning new words. It’s really adorable to watch and interact. 😊😊😊

In the pregnancy department, I’m 34 weeks now and I’ve to keep the baby cooking till 38 weeks. I’ll be delivering on 22 June which will be 38 weeks and 2 days. This baby is measuring bigger than my first. My first was a small baby – he weighed 2.1kg at 37 weeks and i was told to eat more to plump him up in the final few weeks. The second one is currently 2.1kg at 34 weeks. So yep. I’m guessing she’s gonna be heavier.

I’ve been throwing up quite a bit. My gastric has been acting up and everything is going haywire. So I’ve pulled the brakes on some of the meds until the situation gets better. My blood levels are improving though a bit too slowly but I’m hoping that will not be an issue anymore. I still get contractions quite often but they are manageable I think. I also get very very sharp stitch like pains below the belly now and then and I’ve to huff and puff and wait for that to pass.

We’ve to pack the hospital bag this weekend. We’ve been meaning to do this for a while but been procrastinating. I just don’t want baby to suddenly arrive any earlier than the scheduled c section date. I’m really hoping the delivery will be a smooth and calm affair like my first.

I can’t wait to be able to eat without throwing up. I’m counting down.. 27 more days to go!


Work life is so screwed

So. My work life has been taking a huge hit ever since I had gotten pregnant with my first and now my second. Never mind that you had to go through ivf and all that shit just to conceive and go through tough pregnancies at that. I’ve been having issues at work ever since I got a new reporting officer. It’s like.. anything that can go wrong just simply goes wrong and everything seems to be working against me. I’m really upset because I do take pride in my work but I can’t help feel that I’m losing all credibility, redemption etc etc.

I don’t want to sound ungrateful and pin the blame on my pregnancies. I’m very thankful for even being able to conceive via ivf in the first place. And it has really taken its toll on me. I just feel helpless and at a loss.

I know I have to just focus on this pregnancy and having the baby healthy and out at full term. I have to tell myself that I can always pick up on my career at a later time or switch to another workplace when the opportunity comes.

I just can’t help but feel upset. I know I’m rambling already. But I just feel like I’ve lost my place at work. Lost my bearings, my morale. It’s really quite depressing to feel this way.

I guess I’ve no other choice but to trudge through these bad times. I hope I can somehow work things out when I return to work proper next year. And it’s going to be even tougher with 2 kids under 3. But I’m going on a slightly reduced workload to cope with the kids.

Family still comes first. Being a working mom is just incredibly stressful. Sigh.

Still need more luck

So I went back to check my blood levels again and it was a meagre improvement of 0.4. Now it stands at 6.5. Still at transfusion levels. But my doctor decided to let me continue with the iron syrup and threw in some folic acid and vit c effervescent tablets to help with the iron absorption. I’ve to do yet another test to check haemoglobin levels on my next appt in 2 weeks time. Hopefully, hopefully the levels increase to an acceptable level. I’m also gonna chug some orange juice everyday.

I still get braxton hicks contractions and some sharp stabbing ones. But doctor had no answers for those. His only response is to diligently take the meds to keep all contractions at bay.

I’m am SO sick and tired of taking all these meds. I mean the number of meds to be taken during the ivf process already sucks. And I’m still no where near to being med-free 32 weeks into my pregnancy. Like I’m back on duphaston again.

I’ve to endure another 6 weeks. I’m due to deliver by c section on 22 June. I’d be 38 plus weeks then. About the same for my first born as well.

Meantime, I’m off work. My hospitalization leave has been extended till the start of the school hols. And then the school hols kick in so I don’t need the hosp leave for those last 3 weeks.

We’ve been staying at my parents house during the weekdays and go back to our house over the weekends. I can’t take care of my darling 1.5 year old on my own now and I also need someone to be around in case of an emergency.

I’m using this time to tidy up and reorganize the baby stuff. But I’ve to be careful to not overdo it. Anything strenuous brings on the dreaded contractions.

So yep.. that’s all I have for now! I can’t b imagine going through all this again for a third baby. It’s just so so discouraging.

Some luck I have..

So… I had my gynae appt today and had to have a check on my iron levels. And guess what, the levels are so low that it officially warrants a blood transfusion. And I had lost 1kg of weight but baby is on target. The diet plan for my GD appeared to be working but seems to set me back on iron levels. Then again my haemoglobin levels have always been low.

I’ve been ordered to take the highest dosage of iron supplements now. Plus the 4 tablets to keep the contractions in check till I deliver this baby.

And I’ve to go in for another blood check next week and if there’s no improvement I’ll be spoken to about a possible blood transfusion. The horror of horrors.

I’ve got another 7 weeks to endure. 31 weeks now. This is all so so overwhelming.